Filed under: Life, Media | Tags: audition, dinner conversation, end of summer, growing up, Julie and Julia
Tonight is the second to last night of summer. I’m sitting on Heather’s bed, propped against the wall, putting off getting ready to go to sleep, although I know that it’s 10:21 and I should because I have to wake up early tomorrow morning and volunteer at my school, and then go to field hockey practice.
I know that I write a lot of gloomy-type entries, and I don’t mean to, I just realized that I tend to be sort of gloomy when I sit down and think about everything that’s going on. Most of the time I’m just goinggoinggoing and I don’t have the chance to sit down and be pensive. But when I do, I often end up like this – slightly sad, and in the mood to write.
Lately I love the song Daylight by Matt and Kim. Yes, I heard it in that Bacardi commercial. It’s not my fault it’s so catchy ;) But do you ever go through a phase when you like a song so much, and it makes you so happy, that when you get over your phase, listening to that song again then makes you sad? If you have, then you understand. If not, then I’ll just say that it’s not the sort of sad that makes you watch lifetime with a pint of ben and jerry’s, or the kind of sad that makes you cry yourself to sleep, just the sort of sad that makes you remember times that you’ve had fun, and again, just brings you into a type of gloominess.
ANYWAY, enough with the gloominess. Last night I saw Julie and Julia :) It was adorable. I also loved the soundtrack. It was inspirational in the sense that life never has to be boring or hopeless. It’s as interesting as you make it. I love Amy Adams too, she’s so endearing. Sometimes I wish I could be as sweet and cute as her, but when I try, my cynicism gets in the way =/ I will say however that within this summer I have grown and come to realize so much. After Jonny I am more true to my heart, after Princeton, I have a much clearer view of my values and my goals, and all in all, I am more comfortable in my skin these days. And it’s a good feeling. (I’ll exclude the last few days when speaking of being comfortable in my skin because I have been eating terribly and I feel so fat :X)
Also! I almost forgot, I have an audition. Yes, that’s right, an audition. A woman called me the other day from Barbizon modeling and she was asking if I was interested in a free audition on Sept. 13th. It’s an acting/modeling audition for teenage girls. Although my mother was not thrilled with the news because she thinks they’re asking for money, (Does she not understand the word free ..?) I am still thrilled. I’ll be honest, I’m worried that I’m not quite in shape enough for that, but even though today was bad, there is still tomorrow.
Speaking of eating, last night after the movie, I went out to eat with Jonny to catch up. When I asked the waiter if he could bring me another water and some more cheese and crackers, Jonny, shocked, asked me very loudly if I was pregnant. Can you believe that? I was so embarrassed. The entire restaraunt stared at me, and the waiter awkwardly made the joke “better not be ..heh o_O” Not only did it make me look like some irresponsible teen mother, it gave the idea that I was having an affair, as I’m sure many of them assumed Jonny was my boyfriend. I made him apologize to me. His defense was that he had not ever seen me eat that much. I tried explaining that it’s field hockey season and it’s normal for my appetite to increase, but the damage was done. I felt scandolous in the eyes of the surrounding tables.
It’s 11:07 and I just realized that I left my cellphone downstairs, and Heather probably has been trying to contact me. I’ll wrap it up here, and try to get back on to write once school starts. Unlikely.
But until then, xo.
I have to leave for work in about an hour. Despite my need for money, I HATE my job. I am a dishwasher, in a place I refuse to mention, three days a week, totaling in around twenty hours of greasy, grimey, shoulder straining, skin pruning, soaking wet dish cleaning on Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday. H0wever, I also work Friday mornings doing office-type work for another job. I have already given my two week notice at my dishwashing hell, letting my last day be August 2nd, but the time inbetween now and then could not be going any slower. Luckily, I have much to keep me occupied on my days off. Infact, on the 21st I’m going to Warped Tour at the Comcast Center with Deprise. As much as I am looking forward to it, I’ll have to admit that I’m a little worried about Deprise’s ability to sunburn with even the smallest amounts of sunshine available. Hello, SPF 50.
Anyway, I have to cut this post short. I have to print out my mother’s boyfriend’s plane tickets. He’s leaving to California for a week, lucky him -_- And then it’s off to work <3 -_- -_-
Until next time, xo
Filed under: Life, Media, The Internet, The World | Tags: boston, Bruno, photoshop, six flags new england, stumbleupon, worcester massachusetts
I love Bruno. Although it was thoroughly amusing, it just goes to show how crude our humor has become.
I have had a very good time within the past few days. Monday I went to Boston with Deprise and Heather, Tuesday- Six Flags. I went home that night, and went to Heather’s the next morning with Deprise. Later that night we had a fire, woke up the next morning … well, this morning, and spent a few hours with Heather and Jack ‘discovering’ Worcester. Offroading, Bancroft Tower, and mansions. All in this dump of a city.
Also, I drove on the highway for the first time on Monday! It was both terrifying and exciting haha. I didn’t kill anyone, and I have a better feel for the gas and brake pedal, so I’d say it was a drive well done. I do have a lot to learn though. And much more practice. Very much more practice. Also speaking of practice, I’ve practiced working with photoshop through making this creepy picture of Heather/Abe.
I think it compliments the both of them ;D Although, Heather probably would not take that as a compliment what so ever. Come to think of it, Lincoln probably would not appreciate it either. Anywho, I am going to eat the food that my boss made me at the end of my shift despite the unreasonable time of the night/morning and possibly hit the sack.
Until next time, xo ;)
Oh! Ps, I found a new website, courtesy of my friend Lis, that is SO sick. Stumbleupon.com. Could be the most amazing and mindless timeconsuming website yet? Naturally, I love it.
Lately I have been having really vivid dreams, some shocking, some pleasant, all of them interesting. This morning I woke up from a dream about a magic tree. I’m not exactly sure what the tree specialized in, but it just fixed everything. In the beginning of the dream there was a flashback to these Mayans or Inca people who discovered the magic trees hidden in a vast forest and discovered their powers but kept them secret. Then, in real time, I discovered their powers. I some how obtained the knowledge of the ancient history of the tree and I would rub my hands on the flowers and red leaves of the tree and just fix things. I can’t remember all that I did but I distinctly remember making a little sprout in the ground grow into a large beautiful tree and there was a sad, little autistic girl whose hair wouldn’t grow. I rubbed my hands on the pollen of the tree and then rubbed her head and she grew a full head of hair and the color in her face returned to her cheeks and she had a big smile on her face.
Now that I write this dream out, it sounds much less appealing than when I actually dreamt it, but I can assure you it was really amazing. I have a tendency to look up my dream meanings too, because they end up being sort of accurate, and from what I’ve read, my dream translates that in order to flourish and grow, I need a new approach in life - which honestly is believable with how things have been playing out lately.
Anyway, I’m totally supposed to be working right now, so I should probably get to that. Lataaah ;]
Oh & p.s., I saw Adventureland last night .. not so good. There was an interesting plot line, and I love Kristen Stewart, but I expected it to be funnier than it was. I think they were playing on the humor of akwardness, which kind of worked for them but was often played out uncomfortably. I don’t know, maybe my sense of humor just sucks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpEnFwiqdx8
With all shock aside, this video truly bothers me. It’s just scary, I don’t know it gives me a bad feeling. I know I’m a hypocrite by blogging about it, but I feel like the rapid increase in technology and our ‘exponential times’ is going to lead to some kind of crazy, messy conclusion. Maybe it’ll tie into all how the world will end in 2012. Or the Apocolypse. Or MAYBE, I just read into too many of these theories and go off on my train of worst possible scenario thought. Maybe, this is how the dinosaurs died ;)
I’m off to attempt to get my permit. I don’t I have the proper document requirements but let’s see if they’ll let me take it anyway.
Filed under: Life, Media, The Internet, The World | Tags: card night, christmas, E.T., obesity is suicide, shin kicking, thanksgiving, work
So I had a good day today :D I’m on my NEW* computer right now! It’s fabulous<3 It was originally meant as a joint gift for my brother and me but instead it’s for me ’cause I’ll need it for work. Which by the way, I’ve finally started. Right now the work is a tad bit dull, but it’s totally worth it. I get to choose my own hours and work when I feel like it, I don’t have to wear any type of lame uniform, it’s family owned, and I’m getting more than minimum wage. So really, it’s a pretty sweet package. And hey .. I got a new computer out of it right? ;)
So I have more to talk about, I just need to organize my thoughts. Right now there’s people down stairs, it was card night and Marianne and Karan’s friends came over for a pre-thanksgiving dinner and dessert. It’s called card night because originally they played every Wednesday but they don’t play every night anymore, some nights they just hang out. Tonight was one of those nights. We all ate dinner, and there was ALOT of food and dessert, and then we watched Rosie O’Donnell’s live variety show. Afterwards they were gonna play cards but we ended up watching E.T. while all the gay men made smart ass remarks. It was definitely entertaining. After the movie I headed upstairs, I don’t know if they’re still here though. I’m exhausted. I don’t want to miss anything tomorrow ’cause Thanksgiving is I think my second favorite holiday. It used to be Halloween but that’s been sucking lately so I kinda gave up on it.
I made peppermint bark too! And I got creative :)
I melted semi-sweet Gerardi chocolate chips and then sprinkled the top with crushed candy canes and wrote the words with dyed white chocolate chips. I have yet to taste it though. I can’t wait to get into the Christmas spirit! I have the best plans with Jonny on friday. We’re gonna put the tree up and decorate and make christmas cookies and go see Four Christmases. And Friday is my first payday! I’m happy. I really, truly am. I haven’t felt like this in a while :)
But anyway, there are other internet things I’d like to share. The other day I was researching stuff cause I’m doing a health project on obesity, and I found the SICKEST AD! I don’t mean sick like repulsive, I mean sick like wiiicked awesome. 
Honestly, tell me not. That is BALLSY. I’m feelin’ it. I really am. There’s another one of this guy with butter strapped around him like a bomb. They’re great.
And I was looking at some Harry Potter video on MSN and I found this article.
Shin kicking Seriously, that would KILL. Like, I guess it’s a good game o_O I certainly would never play though. … Who even thought of that? Imagine your legs after it’s done though. Omg aah.
I have alot of work to do. I hardly got any done today :/ I’m slackin. And I have so much more I wanted to write about. But I’m gonna try and settle down some. Niiight.
Filed under: Life, Media, The Internet | Tags: Pandora, recovery, Robert Pattinson, surgery, Twilight
So, I had my surgery on thursday. It’s Saturday now. I’m not gonna lie, I did not expect it to be this bad. I mean the leg, yeah I expected it to be sore and to have to wear a gigantic brace and to have to crutch around for a while. But I did not foresee the nausea and the dizziness and the overall feeling like crap. Sheesh. But apparently my recovery is coming along great. I don’t know how you can figure after only a few days, but hey, sure. It’s good to hear I’m doing good.
But anyway, in my time of recovery I’ve gotten some things done. Not any homework yet, but I don’t mind putting that off, I have until December 1st. I finished the last book of Twilight. I don’t even care, it makes me so sad hahah. I haven’t read books that good in so long. I truly miss reading them. But I can still look forward to the movie coming out next week. I actually am so excited to see that, Robert Pattinson. Oh my god. I usually refuse to have any sort of celebrity infatuation because I find it completely pointless and immature, I mean it’s not like you’re REALLY going to end up “Mrs Nick Jonas” or whatever, so why bother? But I can’t help it, when you love the books and the characters as much as I do, it’s hard not to love the movie actors.
<3<3<3
he's absolutely beautiful<3
I have those two pictures on my myspace, ha. I feel so silly actually admitting that I love him so much. Oh AND he has the accent too! That’s one of my requirements for my husband, as I want my children to have british accents. ;)
Anyway, I’ve also discovered Pandora! I haven’t discovered it, but my aunts introduced me to it. It’s online radio that learns your tastes in music and customizes the station to fit exactly what you want to listen to. I’ve been playing with it all day. You can type in a certain song or artist that you want the station to be based on and then it automatically generates music with like sounds. It’s so sick, hahah.
Oh! & I have some shots of my leg :D
a gory shot ;D
from an artistic point of view
my brace I have to wear -_-
That’s all for now though, Jonny (who I’ve decided I want to call Jonathan now,) and Kade are on their way here to visit! Well, I’m pretty sure Kade is sleeping over but Jonathan is just staying for a few hours. Tooodles :)
Honestly, I don’t care about what anyone says, I love Britney Spears. I understand that she has made some wrong turns in her life. I understand that she’s not the most talented or intelligent or beautiful person in the world. But who in their right mind can say that they have never made a mistake in their life? I mean sure, maybe her bottoming out seems a little more extreme than yours, or your neighbor’s, or the guy’s down the street, but yanno maybe your mistakes would seem a little more catastrophic had you had the world at your fingertips. You hit harder when you fall higher. Plus, everyone has skeletons in their closet. It’s not Britney’s fault that the entire world is infatuated with every step she takes. How would you like it if some one documented the worst time of your life and made it into a big ol’ scrapbook to show MILLIONS of people? Not so great huh? Just because we’re used to seeing Britney like this or like this doesn’t mean she’s not allowed to look like this. What? Because her body isn’t perfect like every other hollywood glamour girl she’s automatically tragically overweight? Uhm newsflash, we’re basically ALL overweight compared to hollywood. Her body isn’t fat, it’s normal. I’d like the entire world criticizing how she looks to try and drop twenty pounds and then call her fat. & Honestly, would you want someone to see you and take pictures of you when youre not looking your absolute best? Oh, and then send them out to People magazine and Us Weekly? Nahh, didn’t think so :\ I mean i’m really gonna have to side with Chris on this one. Leave Britney alone.
Filed under: Media | Tags: American Teen, Blasphemy, Bumpersticker, Heath Ledger
I really want to see this. I remember seeing a preview for it a while ago and I totally forgot about it until I saw it featured on Myspace. I think it looks really interesting. It reminds me of The Breakfast Club (one of my favorite movies btw.) & Yeah .. I want to see it haha. Maybe they’d have it on watch-movies.net? Eh probably not though, that seems to be more the place for mainstream stuff. But i’ll find it haha. I’m going to see it.
Today I’m supposed to be going to see The Dark Knight with Heather and Matt. I hear there’s a big tribute to Heath Ledger. I really can’t believe it still, that he’s dead. He was so goodlooking. There’s this bumpersticker on Facebook that has a picture of his face and it’s like:
“BRB.
JK. LOL. “
Terrible right? haha I’m laughing but it’s really bad talking the deceased, which i’ve always been taught is wrong :/ SO shame on me I guess. .. Whatever :P. There’s this other bumpersticker on Facebook that’s called BLASPHEMY. Actually, I’ll see if I can find it, and I’ll post it on here. It’s so bad ha.
..Ya, ha. According to dictionary.com, blasphemy is “irreverent behavior toward anything held sacred, priceless, etc.” Those guys must feel like such jerks, haha. I know I would.
But! I have to shower if I want to be decent looking in time to go to the movies. Adios (:
