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I truly am so easily inspired. I think that at times I become so uninspired that I forget how to be inspired. Or at least, to make the effort to be inspired. A simple film or photograph or poem or sunset can always do the trick. Lately, it seems to be a patience problem. I have become a very impatient person, and I am looking to resolve this advancement. With this in mind, I would like to address my resolutions for 2010.
- I would like to take my health plan a little more seriously now. I imagine this must be on everyone’s list, but I’ve come to the conclusion that it will positively never leave my list. You’d think that something I’ve been agonizing over for the last five years would be taken with a bit of weight by now.
- I’d like to return to painting. I have not for so long, and despite the hectic lifestyle I seem to be submerged in, painting has always been a perfectly healthy outlet for my anxiety that seems to have been neglected as of late.
- I would like to be kinder, braver, and more carefree, though simultaneously strengthen my drive and willpower. The two objectives seem to completely contradict each other, I know.
- I would like to find the way in which I will accomplish my a fore mentioned resolution.
- I would like to stop using “I would like” and start using “I will”.
On that note, I will say that this past year has really brought light to the importance of personal growth and understanding. I will not let that journey end, ever. Here’s to 2010.
No, not replacing him, I have yet to be proven that’s possible.
My new love is for french films, granted I have only seen a few, and they were popular enough to be shown in America, (Oh, how very cultured we are -_-) but I can already tell that french films and I will become very good friends.
I just finished watching Un long dimanche de fiancailles. There was a certain beauty to it that my words fail me in explaining, but it was like nothing I’ve seen before. I was waiting for some grand emotional appeal in the end, queuing the violins and the tears, when some chance of fate would turn the direction of the movie into the magic you most desire in your own life, but naive me, used to the revolutionized, big bucks, Hollywood ending, did not find such a tying of loose ends. I won’t give all the details of the movie, that’s not what I want to do or have the energy/time to do, but it was so, so simple. And it was meant to be that way for a reason, and it worked. I look forward to my next french film.
“Mathilde leans back against her chair, folds her hands in her lap, and looks at him. In the sweetness of the air, in the light of the garden, Mathilde looks at him. She looks at him… She looks at him…”
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I’m trying to stay positive these days, trying to live for each moment, forgetting the ones before me and welcoming the ones to come. My progress may be minuscule, but it has still taken me further from where I once was.
“Tomorrow is much brighter when it’s not smeared with a fixation on yesterday.”
Filed under: Life
I have an addiction to shopping Sephora online — to get the free stuff of course, my stress level is becoming rather ugly as it continues to rise each day, my weight loss seems to be cemented in park, I don’t seem to ever be returning home .. it was nice knowing you guys anyway, and my dry, sarcastic humor sounds dull in even my own ears. Three cheers for life-altering tragedy. Let’s see if I can make it to two within the next month. Who wants to die next!? Woohoo!
Who says I can’t be free
From all of the things that I used to be
Rewrite my history
Who says I can’t be free
-John Mayer
This week has been long, tedious, and gloomy, but I must say that it makes not being in school so much more satisfying. It’s only Thursday, but there’s a staff day tomorrow so Marianne and I have a trip planned. We reserved a tour at Boston University for 10:00 am, thus I must leave this house at atleast 7:00 am. Rough. But very worthwhile. I’ve never really objected to doing things early in the morning, in fact, I’d say I prefer doing things earlier because it seems I get more out of it that way. I love the feeling of waking up early with excitement, knowing that I get to begin my day immediately with something to look forward to. Like Christmas morning.
… Did I honestly just compare a college tour to Christmas morning ..?
Anyway, I’ll be honest, I do look forward to college probably more than most high school students, but I am also totally pumped to be in Boston, I love the city more than most places I’ve ever known <3 I’m also really interested in applying to BU, so who says I can’t love college? ;)
Anyway, dinner is being served soon, and I am ravenous lately. It’s disturbing.
Until next time, xo
