What a day,
What a silly little day.
Time to kill, take a pill,
As I sit and contemplate
- Saturday by Holly Brook
There’s a certain comforting mugginess to the air today while I sit here and wait for the forecasted thunderstorm. I woke up exhausted this morning to run around Worcester and the near by towns, assembling my Mother’s Day gift. I had originally planned on cleaning the entire house and redoing the living room but we weren’t able to get my mom out of the house so we settled for a basket filled with an assortment of motherly things. My mom has been complaining for what seem like ages, for new pots and pans. Thus, I bought her a few good ones that I’m sure she will highly appreciate. I also blew up a nice picture of my brother and I and framed it. I think she’ll appreciate that more.
I haven’t written in a while, to be frank, I haven’t had the time at all. I actually don’t have the time now either but there’s an odd relaxed feeling about this hour of the day and I had to take advantage of it. I’ll admit I have not had the greatest day, quite stressful actually, so it would be a sin to not acknowledge the calmness that has settled over my house. It’s relieving because this week has been the worst I’ve probably ever had, maybe not measured by the events of it, but measured by how I’ve felt. Which is awful, by the way. I’m really, horribly, terribly, ridiculously, upset by Jonny leaving. Now that it’s May, it seems like the days are just flying by and each second brings us closer to having to say goodbye. If there’s anything I’m not good at, it’s dealing with emotions. So I figure this is going to be extra hard. Anyway, I haven’t had much to eat all day and I just got a wave of ravenousness.
I’ll try to update more often, but until then,xo.
