Today is one of those unseasonably warm, give you a taste of weather you can’t enjoy until school’s out, beautiful and sunny, late May days. And it makes me want summer almost more than anything. Today is one of the days that I can feel summer in my bones. I’m sitting on the bus right now, being jostled around, almost to the point of nausea, and vacation is just out of reach. I have an incredible amount of work to finish as well. I feel like im so used to this track of stress and cramming and rushing that when summer actually comes I won’t know what to do myself. It’s odd but definitely in character. I think I’m somewhat of a stressaholic. Or maybe stress is addicted to me because I never seem to enjoy it’s presence in my life, no do I feel a need for it.
On another note, I made select chorus at my school. I’m really excited for next year, I heard we were invited to perform in London. This year the select chorus visited Washington DC for the innauguration and placed fourth in the whole country. I’m really just bragging right now but I can’t help it, I’m totally psyched :D
Other good news, my leg is not in need of surgery again! My doctor said I probably just sprained my knee and got set back in terms of physical therapy but other than that I’m all healed :) Things have been going really well lately, all besides my mom and Jonny. Both are pretty influential and important people in my life, so it’s rough that there’s issues with them but both situations are out of my control so I can really only try to deal with it. Anyway, I have a load of homework to start.
Till next time,xo.
What a day,
What a silly little day.
Time to kill, take a pill,
As I sit and contemplate
- Saturday by Holly Brook
There’s a certain comforting mugginess to the air today while I sit here and wait for the forecasted thunderstorm. I woke up exhausted this morning to run around Worcester and the near by towns, assembling my Mother’s Day gift. I had originally planned on cleaning the entire house and redoing the living room but we weren’t able to get my mom out of the house so we settled for a basket filled with an assortment of motherly things. My mom has been complaining for what seem like ages, for new pots and pans. Thus, I bought her a few good ones that I’m sure she will highly appreciate. I also blew up a nice picture of my brother and I and framed it. I think she’ll appreciate that more.
I haven’t written in a while, to be frank, I haven’t had the time at all. I actually don’t have the time now either but there’s an odd relaxed feeling about this hour of the day and I had to take advantage of it. I’ll admit I have not had the greatest day, quite stressful actually, so it would be a sin to not acknowledge the calmness that has settled over my house. It’s relieving because this week has been the worst I’ve probably ever had, maybe not measured by the events of it, but measured by how I’ve felt. Which is awful, by the way. I’m really, horribly, terribly, ridiculously, upset by Jonny leaving. Now that it’s May, it seems like the days are just flying by and each second brings us closer to having to say goodbye. If there’s anything I’m not good at, it’s dealing with emotions. So I figure this is going to be extra hard. Anyway, I haven’t had much to eat all day and I just got a wave of ravenousness.
I’ll try to update more often, but until then,xo.
