Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: hatin' for no reason, Lil Wayne, Mr. Carter, new years
*This one’s for the girls ;)
Okay, I was listening to Mr. Carter by Lil Wayne this morning while I was getting ready and there was this familiar quote in it that caused me to have a slight epiphany. The verse goes :
“Man I got summer hatin’ on me cuz im hotter than the sun
got spring hatin’ on me cause I ain’t never sprung
winter hatin’ on me cause I’m colder than yall
and I will never I will never I will NEVER FALL
I’m being hated by the season
so fuck y’all who hatin’ for no reason”
I’ve seen the quote a couple places, on different people’s Myspace’s and what not, and it really got me thinking. (Note: I am not meaning to target this towards any person, nor am I trying to offend anyone.) There’s all this talk these days about “haters” and how people need to “stop hatin’” Like, maybe they’re not ‘hatin for no reason’. Maybe you’re just really a b*tch. Has anyone ever considered that? There’s all these people walking around and trying to act all ‘hard’ and whatever, with this “I don’t care about anything or anyone, or whatever people have to say about me.” attitude. … Well maybe that’s why you’re unliked. Maybe, people don’t like that you only care about yourself. If we’re all created equally here, why do you feel the need to walk around like you’re better than everyone else? What I don’t understand is this new concept or idea of popularity. Like, how some people would prefer to be envied and hated and KNOWN by everyone rather than to be genuinely liked by a lot of people. I don’t know about anyone else, but when I think of happiness, love and friendship come into mind, not greed and hate and fakeness. Is this fad a product of all our insecurities? Cause honestly, I don’t understand it.
Anyway, the last twenty four hours of 2008 are counting down and I’m pumped! I still need to work on my New Years resolutions though. Welll, I’m sure I’ll figure it out. Bye!
So, originally I decided to stay home tonight because I have a ton of homework to do and I was like hey, I’ve been out of school for about a century now, I can spare a night of socializing and stay in to catch up.
Out of my ten essays, I got one finished. I started another one but I was really drained so I knew that if I took a break I would end up writing better when I got back to it.
I took my break, and I’m actually still taking my break, and oh my goood I am bored. I’ve tried various activities, and I’m still ready to call it quits and just go to bed. I sort of planned earlier to pull a semi allnighter and get a ton of work done but so far it hasn’t really worked out. I know that I should get back to my one out of a billion papers but I don’t want to yet :( haha. I may even start playing with makeup, I’m honestly that bored. — And it’s not that I don’t love playing with makeup, I just hate putting it on when I know that I’m not doing anything, and I’m seriously doing nothing. I’ve outplayed Tap Tap Revenge on my iPhone, I’ve put away my laundry/gone through my summer clothes & clothes I’ve outgrown, I officially hate Myspace, there’s no one to talk to on Facebook, and it just shows how much I suck by having to refer to those things as potential ways of keeping me occupied.
I put a face mask on earlier and I still have yet to wash it off, so I’ll make myself do that at some point. I was thinking about working out, but then I remembered I’m limited by my stupid, weak, surgery leg. -_- I’ve realized I’ve been complaining throughout this entire post, and hey. It is the only thing that’s keeping me from being so bored that I slam my head into a wall to give me some excitement.
I’m determined to get some more work done tonight but I’m starting to yawn. I think maybe I’ll read some of my book, cause that always helps me when I write afterwards, and if I accomplish the finishing of atleast the essay that I began earlier, I’ll go to bed.
In other news, I’ve finally decided how I’d like to get my hair done, and I finally have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, for my now fading cold that I’ve been suffering from for the past lightyear.
But I’m actually gonna go now. Toodloo.
watching people just kill themselves. Just letting their lives waste away, being consumed by misery. I’m really sick of it.
So I was having a minor break down in the car with Jonny tonight while he was driving me home, and I came up with this awesome simile for my wonderfully fulfilling home life<3 Trying to make a point here is like screaming underwater. You can scream as loudly as you’d like, but no one is going to hear you. You’re not even going to make a ripple on the surface. And eventually, water just fills your lungs and you drown. On a lighter note, I have not yet drown. I absolutely refuse to. It just gets rough these days. I have so much work to do this weekend, like I cut all plans so I can take it easy and just workworkwork. :/ AKA, I will not be leaving this room for the next two days most likely. But I’m gonna finish up here. I’m really exhausted after tonight. I spent like an hour and a half standing around Old Navy. Night.
