Filed under: Life, The World | Tags: global warming, new england weather, nice weather, stress, student government day
I hate those days when you’re just stressed. Actually, I hate those occasions when you just feel like you need to flip out, for no apparent reason. I’m pegging it as stress, but I really have yet to figure out what it is. I’m pretty sure that I have anxiety, which isn’t cool, but hey that’s life. I’m trying to calm down right now. I’m listening to calming music and trying to just take it easy, but I honestly have no idea why I feel this way right now. Nothing stressful or upsetting has happened today, I’ve been in a pretty good mood all day to tell you the truth. It was abnormally gorgeous out today, and that was a total plus, and I took a refreshing nap from 4-5. So why am I so uncomfortably unhappy right now? O_o I took a break from my history homework for this because I felt like I was going to explode. Jonny says I worry him. Jeez, I worry myself.
So sidetrack, I said it was really nice out today right? Like, 65 degrees, sunny and with a slight breeze. AKA, perfect. Yeah, I checked the forecast for tomorrow, snow. Only in New England will you have a 70-degree day and then the next day have a blizzard. But really, it’s that Global Warming, I swear. I think probably everyone has heard me mention Global Warming at some point. Think it’s annoying? Hey, sorry that’s just what I believe in. I’m a pretty opinionated person.
Today my history teacher told my class about Student Government Day on April 3rd. It’s when students around Massachusetts take the place of the men and women in the governing body of the state. Two students, the delegate and the runner-up go into Boston for the day and do state-y stuff o_O She didn’t go into great detail but I’m definitely interested in it. It would look amazing on college resumes, especially since I want to major in political science. We’re being elected by our classmates, so idk what my chances are, but at least I’ve got class president going for me. HOPEFULLY, I get a shot with this, I’d be so happy.
That’s all for today though I guess. I’m feeling better now. Adios!
Filed under: Life, The Internet | Tags: F the internet, field hockey, Pub 99, Sex Drive
-_- I just wrote a whole bunch and it got friggen deleted and I want to punch someone. I hate when that happens, it’s seriously so frustrating. -_- And my keyboard sucks.
BUT ANYWAY, I can’t get an Internet connection right now but I felt like writing and I haven’t for super long so I decided I would :P I’ll just post it when my Internet decides to work.
This weekend ended up being really good even though I did absolutely nothing today. Friday was the last game of the FH season so I went to the game in Uxbridge, and afterwards the team slept over Alex’s. It was actually wicked fun, I’m not even going to lie. I haven’t done something like that in so long, it was almost refreshing. On Saturday I was supposed to go to Witches Woods with Jonny. Lis and Courtney were going separately too and I kinda stole the idea from them ha. Buuut, it ended up raining, so Jonny and I went out for dinner and then saw Sex Drive. At Pub 99, where we went to eat, we looked like straight up D bags. Earlier before we left I stole Jonny’s wallet from him and forgot to give it back to him, so it was on my dresser. -_- So Jonny left to get it and I had to sit there and receive dirty looks from our waitress for a good fifteen-twenty minutes. FUN. Afterwards we drove to the mall so I could pick up something but it was closed to we just went to Blackstone. Sex Drive ended up being hilarious, and even though I had a bad feeling that night, I’m totally glad I ignored it because I wouldn’t have gone out if I hadn’t.
Today wasn’t that productive .. but whatever. I cleaned and laid around and did homework. It’s okay, it’s only Sunday. It’s like nine though, and I’m trying to get a head start on history work this week, last week I totally bombed o_o
Tooodles !@#$
You know, it’s really nice getting back in touch with old friends. The past week or so I’ve been spending time with Megan, Melinda, and Deprise. We’ve been friends for years now and it seems that through all of it, no matter how much time we spend apart, we can still pick up from where we left off every time we see each other. Through the school year we all get caught up in our different activities and different groups of friends, but when summer comes around we all get together and it feels like we never spent any time apart. It’s like we all fit together comfortably despite our differences and there has never been anyone else who I’ve shared a relationship like this with. It’s not that we’re the closest of friends, or that we get along the best, but it’s like we’ve known each other for so long that no matter what happens, we’ll always be friends. We can all relate to each other in some way or another. We are all very different people but we all share the same memories and bond. Like, as people we are diverse. But there are all aspects of us that connect. We’re always going to have some piece of our personalities that don’t quite fit with anyone else but us. I mean, we’ve been friends throughout our childhood, it would only make sense to have this kind of connection right? I don’t know why I’m rambling on about this, it just feels good to have friends like mine :)
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Funny, that this is the best self consolation I can find.
A stupid blog with no purpose.
Then again, what more can I ask for.
It’s times like these, times when I feel real shitty, that I always try to imagine myself in the shoes of someone else.
A starving child somewhere. A rape victim. An old man who’s lost his wife of sixty years.
Then, when I think of these things, I figure my situation can’t be as bad as it feels.
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I need to stop worrying.
I need to learn to be truly happy for other people.
I need to stop letting jealousy rule my other emotions.
I need to stop being selfish.
I need to stop being angry.
*I need to keep an open mind and stop taking life so seriously.
I need to learn to let go of things.
I need to learn to forgive.
I need to learn to take the right emotions out on the right people.
I need to stop being materialistic.
I need to stop being such a procrastinator.
I need to not eat just when I’m bored.
I need to stop worrying so much about what I eat.
I need to stop being vain.
I need to stop being insecure and selfconscious.
I need to learn to relieve stress before it’s overwhelming.
I need to avoid anxiety.
I need to learn to not dread tasks and events of the future, but accept them as challenges and work through them.
*I need to speak up and tell people how I feel or what I think.
I need to be grateful for what I have and not dwell on what I don’t.
I need to learn to be able to clear my mind.
I need to stop being shy when I don’t need to be.
I need to accept people for their differences.
I need to be more polite.
I need to not be so superstitious.
I need to be mindful of other’s feelings and opinions.
I need to stop caring about what other people think of me.
I need to be understanding.
I need to stop dwellng on my imperfections.
I need to do what I really want to do because I want to do it, not just because there’s nothing else to do.
*I need to accept the past, be thankful for what I got from it, learn from my mistakes and move on.
I need to learn to spend my time more usefully.
& On that note, I need to go do my history homework :)
I’ll work on this more later.
Oh! and side note, I had a dream about snakes last night? The whole dream wasn’t about that but it was the only thing that I remembered about it. I looked up some dream interpretations and it could mean a few different things, but I’m going with the explanation saying there’s something bothering me that I don’t want to deal with, but that needs to be. … I just don’t know how. But anywhoo, I’ve got thangss to do. Toodles :P
Filed under: Life, The World | Tags: adults, explanations, geometry chemistry and spanish, the feeling of fall, worldly events, young people
Despite the larrrge amount of stress I have right now, I’m actually in a pretty good mood. I have a math quiz, a chemistry quiz, and a huge spanish test tomorrow though -_-
My mom is making apple crisp right now, and I have a pumpkin to carve. I know it’s only early October but I really do love the fall. To be honest, I don’t think there’s a single part about it that I don’t like. Fall feelings and Christmas feelings are my favorite. I mean I get these really cheerful weather-based moods every season but the colder months seem to have something special about them. I can’t wait until the leaves really start falling off the trees, I love the smell.
I meant to get on here the other day and write because I had a certain though that I wanted to remember so I’d better do that now before I do forget. My thought is that I really, really appreciate when adults take the time to explain things to kids. I mean yeah, teachers and parents and coaches explain things we’re supposed to learn, like algebra or how to tie our shoes or how to perfect our backhand volleys. But it seems that adults never like to take the time and explain to children what’s going on in the world. I can count on one hand the number of adults that will talk to me about the stock market crisis or the presidential debate. It’s actually ridiculous in my eyes. We, as in my generation, are the most important people to be talking about such things really. It’s US that has to deal with all of the issues of the world. Why wouldn’t you want to educate us? It’s not even that we need to be told how to think, or what opinions to form, but to just have something explained to us so we can do those things on our own. Adults talk about how clueless young people are, how we don’t know what we want, how we should be paying attention to the news. Did it ever occur to any of them that in order to become educated, some one needs to educate us? That in order to figure out what we want, we need to know what we dont want, and what we don’t like about our surroundings and what’s happening within them? That maybe we would pay attention to the news a little more if we understood what exactly they were talking about? I get that I’m not a wise elder who already has a life time of experience, but adults say all the time that kids think they know everything. I don’t for one second believe that I know everything. But honestly, why doesn’t some one tell me? Teach me something why don’t you? Young people can be ‘young’ and learn at the same time, give us a chance. When it comes down to it, how can we act on something we know nothing about?
